Dark clouds may hang on me sometimes

Dark clouds may hang on me sometimes, but I'll work it out...

Monday, June 27, 2011


Have you ever wanted to tell someone something, but were too afraid of their reactions? Have you ever held back because knowing that they could completely cut you off was too painful to bear?

Why do we do that?
Sometimes it's too soon,
or it's not the right place,
or just not the right time.

There's always a reason.
Always something holding us back.

Of course, if you don't just put it all out on the table then you're forced to hold it in and let it slowly eat away at you.

Now you have two choices. You can suffer or you can take a chance and relieve the stress you've put on yourself.

What are you going to do?

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Thursday, June 23, 2011


"Sometimes you have to be strong for yourself. You have to know that you are a good person and a good friend. What is meant to be will end up good and what is not won't. Relationships are worth fighting for, but sometimes you can't be the only one fighting. At times, people need to fight for you. If they don't, you must just move on and realize what you gave them was more than they were willing to give you. Always fight, until you can't anymore, and then be fought for."

Friday, June 10, 2011



We always assume we have so much of it.

We always put things off.
We'll get to it later.

What if later never comes?

Wednesday, June 8, 2011



I've known loss in my life. I've lost friends and family to death and differences. I've mourned. I've shed tears and felt pain, but I've never felt such sorrow as I feel right now at the news of Mrs. Linda Peterson passing away.

Mrs. Linda had a smile that could light up a room. I know people have said that many times before but when Mrs. Linda smiled, so did everyone within earshot because her smile came with a full-belly laugh. She was one of the most positive, optimistic people I've ever met-no matter what the situation was. No matter how bad something got, she had a solution or a way of relating it to something ridiculous that made you laugh and forget what was wrong.

She never spoke down to anyone and when she spoke to you, you had her complete attention. She never gave you less than 100% and along with that 100% came more wisdom than I've ever experienced in my entire life. She was an endless wealth of knowledge. I still remember her saying 'Never lend anyone more than you can afford to lose,' whenever anyone asks me for anything. And whenever I'm not sure about something I can hear her saying 'Go on, miss New York.'

Mrs. Linda touched so many people, some from North Carolina and some just passing through, and now we're mourning all over the country. New York, Illinois, Missouri, South Carolina, Pennsylvania, Virginia. She always used to call us her kids, and now we've all lost someone who was like a mother to us at one point or another.

I hope that when my time comes, I have people who care as deeply for me as Mrs. Linda does. I can only dream to touch as many lives as she did so effortlessly. When people remember me, I hope they smile. And I hope that they can say they'll never forget me, just like I'll never forget Linda Peterson.

I miss those spicy pickles. And
hearing you talk about getting
toasty, because you didn't like
the word drunk. And hearing
you practically sell ice to an
Eskimo. And I miss all of these
things because they were a part
of you. I know it's been a while,
but I miss you. Always.
-Amanda 'Meagan' <3

Monday, June 6, 2011



When you're going through something that seems like it'll never end, just remember that nothing lasts forever. And even though you feel like the hits keep coming, one after another, eventually they will stop. Hang in there. It'll get better.

It has to get better.

Wednesday, June 1, 2011


Secrets, Secrets, are no fun.
Secrets, Secrets, hurt someone.

Everyone has secrets. Everyone. Most people will deny it. A lot of people will say they've got nothing to hide. Some people will even say they're an open book. The truth is, it's all lies.

Unfortunately, everyone has something to hide. Everyone has some deep dark secret that they keep hidden from the world because they're embarrassed or ashamed. Or they're afraid that they will be treated differently, or never looked at the same way again. But look around. There are things you'll never know about your best friend, a family member, the person you love. That's just the way it is. I'm sure you've got a few things that will never pass through your lips too.

And what's worse than keeping secrets from the people we care about? Keeping secrets from ourselves. Sometimes there are things we don't want to admit. Things we don't want to own up to. Things we don't want to remember. Things that we just don't want to deal with and by not thinking about them, hope that they go away on their own. Deep down we know that will never happen, but we keep hoping anyway.

The worst part about secrets is that sometimes they find their way out. No matter how hard you fight to keep them buried under lies and explanations, they find a way to surface. And at the most inconvenient times too.

"Whoever wishes to keep a secret
must hide the fact that he possesses
one."- Johann Wolfgang von Goethe