Dark clouds may hang on me sometimes

Dark clouds may hang on me sometimes, but I'll work it out...

Friday, May 27, 2011



The truth hurts. And it especially hurts when you find out how long the lies have gone on for. It hurts even worse when you find out that not one single thing, not one single word out of that persons mouth was real.

The real kicker is realizing that little voice inside was right. After that, everything becomes a joke. You find it hysterical how someone can lie right to your face without faltering once. It's amazing how skilled someone can become at that. I guess you could even consider it an art-not a very good one, but an art none the less. Almost like acting, but not quite.

Anyway, once the initial shock fades, and the
humor runs dry, all you're left with is annoyance. Annoyance that you were fooled, annoyance that you didn't realize this sooner, annoyance at the fact that you even believed anything in the first place.

The good news is that even that fades. Then all you feel is pity, and you wonder how many other people were fooled. How many other people found out? How many other people has this person lost?

Eventually, this person becomes nothing but a memory that you can laugh about with friends. Just like your wild adventure in Puerto Rico, that you almost didn't make it home from.



It's a terribly horrifying thing. Whether you're in it, around it, or even thinking about it.

Love can make you crazy, it can make you stupid, jealous, insecure. Love can make you or break you. It can damn near ruin your life if you let it. For something to have that much power, of course it's going to be scary. How can anyone blame you for wanting to go running and screaming in the opposite direction?

What if the person you love doesn't love you back? Or doesn't know you even exist? Or worse, what if they love someone else? Oh, the number of things that could go wrong are countless. It could be a total catastrophe. Complete and utter humiliation may ensue. The world could quite possibly end, or so it may seem at times.

And just finding someone to love is enough trouble in itself. People are crazy, selfish, inconsiderate, foolish... I mean really, at this point is it even worth it anymore? Is putting yourself on the line for a m
ere possibility worth the risk?

Of course it is. When you do find someone who is worth all of the trouble, all of the things that could go wrong, the e
mbarrassment, the humiliation... hearing them say 'I love you' is invaluable.

So if you love someone, take the risk.
After all, taking a risk is better than having a regret.

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Saturday, May 14, 2011



Isn't it funny how you spend most of your life trying to prove yourself? Trying to be who other people want you to be? Trying to please your parents, your friends, the person you think that you're in love with this week? You spend your whole life doing things for everyone else and sometimes you lose sight of who you are. You lose sight of what you want. What do you want?

Take a moment and look at your life. What are you doing? Where are you going? Who are you?

Then go back to when you were younger. Are you where you thought you'd be?

More than likely you didn't become an astronaut and unless you're Kate Middleton, you didn't become a princess either. That's not what I meant. I'm not talking about when you were five and running around wearing a towel as a cape. I meant more like when you were in high school. Old enough to have some sense of direction while still having the whole world at your fingertips. Before bills and real responsibility. What did you want to be? What were your dreams? Did you follow them?
It's never to late to be
who you might have been.
-George Eliot


"Don’t expect for life to be easy, you’ve got to earn what you want. The best of lessons will come during your worst times, so take your greatest downfall as your greatest gift. No matter the relationship you have with your family, bad or good, never take them for granted. Tread carefully around the trail of love, and always remember to keep your heart. Your life is defined by the things you do, and the things you do are caused by the way you think… So your thoughts are equally as resounding as your actions. Grow, learn, and listen. Surround yourself with all things positive. Help others in need. Don’t lose sight of what’s important in life. Appreciate your passions and grip your fears tightly; they are what make you one of a kind."

Sunday, May 8, 2011


Mistakes, Lies, and other things that you regret...

Everyone makes mistakes.
Everyone tells lies.
Everyone has regrets.

If you mess up, you mess up. It happens. Sometimes you can turn it all around and make things right, and sometimes you can't. Sometimes you have to suffer with the consequences of your actions. It's a horrible feeling that makes your stomach drop every time you think about whatever happened. It takes a long time to get over that feeling because you can't control it. You can't stop it. You just have to deal with it.

In cases like that, save your "I'm sorry's." Save your "I'll never do that again's." Save your "I didn't mean it's" for someone who has the time to listen to you. You need to show someone you're sorry because your words are what got you in trouble in the first place.

"If you’re going to do something
tonight that you’ll be sorry for
tomorrow morning, sleep late."

Thursday, May 5, 2011


Catch me if you can...

In the last week, several people have told me I'd be a good catch... if I'd let someone catch me.

I hate the way that sounds. I'm not a fish. And is it so bad not to want to be caught? I'm having plenty of fun doing my own thing, doing things for myself, not having to worry about someone else's feelings.

Now, I'm not against finding someone. I'm just not going to settle. I don't want to be with someone who doesn't give me butterflies every time I think about them. I refuse to be with someone who doesn't make me see fireworks just from a kiss. I've settled before and all that did was get someone hurt.

I just want someone who is smart, funny, and someone I can talk to (who will understand the things I say). I don't want to have to explain everything, and I don't want to have to be like a mother to the person I'm seeing. I'm not saying I'm a genius, I just want someone who can keep up with me. And I don't play the jealousy game. Or any games for that matter. As far as I'm concerned, if you want me to be jealous over someone else, then go and be with that someone else.

Also, I refuse to be with someone that I can break. That sounds awful, and it is. But if you're not going to be even slightly challenging, and you can't keep my attention, why should I bother?

If you know what you want, go for it. Don't just settle for what's around.

Personally, I don't think that that's asking for a lot.
Make me laugh and keep things interesting. That's all.

“Falling in love with someone isn't always
going to be easy... Anger... tears... laughter..
It's when you want to be together despite it
all. That's when you truly love each other.
I'm sure of it.”

Sunday, May 1, 2011


The Difference Is....

There is a very large, and obvious, difference between being amazingly awesome, and amazingly annoying.

YOU are amazingly annoying.

I am amazingly awesome.




Let me tell you something about assumptions.

They make you look like an asshole.

Isn't it much easier to just ask someone a simple question rather than assume something and agonize over it? I mean seriously, grow up and grow a pair.

I especially hate when someone assumes that you're saying, or have said, bad things about them, and then take it upon themselves to do the same... even though there's no proof that you've done anything wrong.

I guess there's just no getting through to those kinds of people because they like drama. They feed on it, and they have to create it no matter what is, or isn't, going on.

And if you don't mind, I'd like to touch on liars for a second...

Honestly, your best bet is to just stop lying. It's never too late to stop, come clean. I already know that you're full of shit and I know you lie about a number of things for absolutely no reason. I'm giving you a chance to tell me the truth before there's absolutely no possibility of salvaging what's left of our friendship.

And just for your information, exaggerating and stretching the truth are the same as lying. Just wanted to clear that up in case you weren't sure.

A half truth is a whole lie. ~Yiddish Proverb

Those who think it is permissible to tell white
lies soon grow color-blind. ~Austin O'Malley